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01/17/05 10:11:46 pm
Well, I'm back. And again, I am apologizing to you readers. At this point I am not sure how many of you are actually out there that have seen this site or even care, but I am still insistent on forging ahead.
“So what the hell have you been doing for the last four months?” you ask.
Well, I will tell you, and I will try to keep my crap brief........
First of all my computer crashed. Just after I started this page, I bought a refurbished PC. It ran great for about a month and then all of a sudden the hard drive started making noise. Not a very noticeable noise, though. It wasn't until it wouldn't boot one day (about a week later) and I opened up the case that I could really tell... “Whoa, that thing is toast,” I thought. I was finally able to scraped enough money together to get another hard drive and get the thing rebuilt. However, except for a CD I had made off of my previous PC, all my data was shot. Including this page.
I know, I should have backed everything up, right? Well, I didn't. I had only had the darn thing a month. I figured, well, I just got it and I am still trying to get it all set up, so I have time. I didn't; it died; here I am having down loaded everything back off my host sever.
Next.....
I had to put Sundance, my dog, down. It was really hard. He was having kidney issues and I
couldn't afford the surgery. I didn't want to let him go, but it was best for him. There's a
point that you hit where you're keeping the dog alive because you don't want to let him/her go
and that is just selfish. In the wild, animals that are sick leave the pack or the herd.
Sacrifice of one for the good of the many. Instead, we as humans hang on to way too much stuff
because we can part with it. Books, clothes, knick-knacky-crap, pets, even friends. This is
why every corner of our homes are total fire hazards.
Anyway, I took Sundance to vet. I sad there and held him while the vet injected him. Not normally done, true. However, for the last few years I have been living on my own and my only roommate and companion, my only constant friend has been Sundance. So, here I sit, writing to all of you.....
A blog about one friend that I lost years ago and feel guilty over because I have no idea exactly what happened to him.
A dog that that I just put down, of whom all I have left is a little canister of ashes, some pictures, a whole lot of memories, and collar with tags.
A friend that help me put together (for better or worse) a couple of monsters, a friend that I hardly get to see any more, hardly get to talk to, and sometimes feel that I hardly know.
That's it folks. My update, whether you like it or not. I hope that it wasn't too disappointing. Now that I have the computer back up and now that I have been able to think about Sundance with breaking down into tears every time, I can get can get back to this site. Thanks for your patience. Thanks for listening. Be well.